The commoners’ thought on thinking……(Me person telling the story)

It is actually very strange to get this feeling that your mind is not actually calm. You try to pretend it to be like nothing is happening and you are in full control of it. But, in reality that is actually not happening. Millions of thoughts battle together and are always creating a chaos out of nowhere and you start to battle inside your head with yourself.

A human mind is actually an abstract machine that has the potential to make or break things of let’s say the people. Everything that happens around us is not just because of the natural stability or changes but, most of them are because of the mind that works every fraction of time. It either creates positive or negative aspects but, either way it happens to make an effect. The effect could start from a single individual to a family, community, country and ultimately whole world as well. Let’s see Elon Musk, what his mind created is still a sort of imaginary aspects for most of the population of this world. Jeff Bezos, Steve Jobs and fewer but, many more. I can give an example of a simple whole sell distributer who have earned a lot of money just with his supply of products made by others and is making a change within the society where he lives.

But, the story is different for me sometimes. I often think what do i have as my potentials? When i see these people, read about those people and try to understand them, I get mentally retarded and get hang over because, I feel like that is merely possible. How in this world they manage to do it? I have not been able to operate a single café even with my good experience of cooking. I have this feeling to start a video and do blogging of what i know about how to cook but, still i am not being able to do that. I am great at teaching things to people, but my knowledge are almost confined on what i have studied and worked so far, i.e., Cookery. I am thinking of starting a cooking classes and start that as my business cum job but, i am scared that how would i compete with others and, more than that i am barely able to pursue a god marketing strategy. How do people do all those complex stuffs? My mind always boggles and i am always in pain and in tear that i literally ain’t capable of doing anything good. I want to have something good of my own.

I often think that how people tend to get opportunities that i have never been able to get. I know that hard work and dedication is the key. Not loosing the hope and being consistent is another key. Do you think that i didn’t had all those? I had it all in within me and it runs within my vain always. I always try to remain constant, persistent, calm and positive. I work every day with good hopes and without thinking of result. I work with dedication to increase my knowledge and experience. I had worked for many employer and always had good reputation with them but, never for once i got any such opportunities that others got. I often hear their stories where they get promoted, transferred abroad or other outlet earning fortune and living in upscaling path. I have never had that opportunity yet still, i am constantly searching and hunting for that one spark.

I often see people being paid well for their skills like; singers for their songs, writer for their texts, fighters for their match, player for their play and so on. I am constantly searching for mine. I am satisfied and still not satisfied for what i have now. If i become satisfied, i can’t think more and i will be dumb and will remain at same stage forever. I want improvements, i want competition, i want growth, i want at least good aspects from me to bring even a miniscule change in the society but, i need something. I may not be getting those things at once or soon, but i do have this feeling that i will get it one day. I have lost many times, if i have to count i have lost for five different times trying this and that sort of business, i won’t loose every time. I am very hopeful on that note and i am sure that my mind will also get this connection of how to manage, make or break things. For me it’s not break but i will look for making things.